What comes after great pain.

                    Feeling after Great Pain

After great pain a formal feeling comes –

The nerves sit ceremonious like tombs;

The stiff Heart questions- 
was it He that bore?

And yesterday- or centuries before?

The feet mechanical

Go round a wooden way

Of ground or air or Ought, 
regardless grown,

A quartz contentment like a stone.

This is the hour of lead

Remembered if outlives,

As freezing persons recollect the snow-

First chill, then stupor, 
then the letting go.

                 Emily Dickinson (1830-1886)

This great pain from you has left me emotionless. I am feeling so numb as if I am dead. This heart feels stone cold and rock heavy. I am standing emotionless in a death ceremony. I have even lost the sense of time. I don’t even remember weather it is new or old. Whether I suffered it yesterday or I am bearing it since centuries.

Thinking of the pain you gave, my feet has turned wooden. My body has turned into an emotionless machine just to carry the burden of mere existence.

Time has become as heavy as lead for me. It is so difficult to work with it. I will never outlive this suffering. Certainly I will have to die first to forget this great pain.

It is like last snowfall, I was freezing, still tried to hold the snow (pain) in my hands. First I felt the chill. Then my hands stopped feeling anything. Lastly I realized I could not hold it and had to let it go.

Kartikey